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Doomed to be Cliche.


There comes a time in a woman’s life, around the quarter century mark, that she has a quarter century crisis. Mine happened about a month ago, as I sat in a market bar, around 11 pm, sipping champagne and reading a magazine. I was dressed to the nines, smoking endless cigarettes, barely looking up from the thrilling read when I realized: I’m surrounded by duos.

Huddling in dark corners of my favorite bar, sipping on the finest cheapest French pinot noir, half the women in the room are waiting with bated breath: is tonight the night he pops the question? All around us are women who have been fantasizing about the wedding (note, not the marriage) since they were little girls. That all encompassing day, when finally they can walk down the aisle, all teary eyes on them, and that knock-off Vera Wang dress. It truly takes your breath away. (Or for some, ignites your gag reflex)

So who wants to be a bride these days anyway?

Frankly I’ve been wondering lately if I’m trying to live a life devoid of cliche. Marriages all around are falling apart, and after the three weddings I attended this past year, its easy to see why. Chubby brides in dresses so tight, so white, so … bedazzled, demanding compliments be showered upon them, because it is their (one and only) day to be showered with compliments. Am I bitter? Cynical? Or maybe just tired of being forced to watch reels of bachelorette party after party, blowjob shooter after blowjob shooter, only to witness the ‘great love’ at the alter swearing their purity for one another the very next day. Maybe I’m more conservative than I lead on. I like to think I’m ok, and the brides of today are the ones with the problem. Maybe that’s what helps me sleep at night. All I know is if one more ‘happy’ couple expects me to sit through a collage of their newborn’s first poop, I might implode…

What went wrong? The Wedding and the actual Marriage, are two separate entities, and the lines have been completely blurred. The idea that you’d like to spend the rest of your life with one man or one woman is a beautiful one. However, most people don’t fantasize about arguing over how to raise the children, money problems, lay-offs, wandering eyes and dried up libidos. No one wants to fantasize about the real hard work it is to maintain a relationship of any sort. Daydreaming about white dresses and horse drawn carriages is much easier. Regurgitating vows one does not intend to keep (or quite frankly, understand) is common practice. “I love my husband (as long as he keeps his job, entertains me, takes me out, doesn’t get fired, doesn’t take a pay cut, keeps his mother at bay… or any other irreconcilable difference that will lead to divorce). For richer or poorer is more of a shiny slogan on the disposable logo that most marriages have devolved into.

So let’s look at the facts; A good 50% of marriages end in the worst way possible: Divorce. And so many others are betrayed unknowingly by affairs, and the like. So why is it then all these magazine covers keep telling us to take the plunge? Weddings are big business and Vera Wang’s new mansion isn’t going to pay for itself.

The wedding, as my close circle of female friends likes to call it, has transformed itself into a parade of vanity. I remember after this one particular wedding, the bride quickly announced to the groom that he’s got a month of fun left, before its baby birthin’ time. And these people are in their early thirties. So quick to settle on a life so mediocre. Don’t get me wrong, there’s nothing mediocre about procreation and wanting to create life (I’m told its one of the most rewarding experiences out there), but to suffocate it with that kind of talk just seems tacky. Isn’t there any mystery left in the world, or even people seeking it? Where is the joy in knowing exactly where you will be buried at the tender age of 25?

And that seems to be the trouble with misunderstood lasses like yours truly. I may not know where my head will rest two months from now (and if the universe weren’t such a cruel place, it’d be on Miguel’s shoulder (a muscle-y, oiled up surfer … from Brazil… falling asleep as he caresses my hair into the moonlight…. sigh. ~ although more likely in bed with the true love of my life, my room-mate Julie, smoking cigarettes in a dingy Berlin apartment) but there’s a stability in that idea too. My constant state is in flux and there’s comfort in that. To settle down in the suburbs with minivans and grape drink is to settle period. My editor asked me to write this article as a single girls guide to the city. And its all been said before. I don’t want to run through the street screaming “I’m single and fabulous”, because I do agree with the idea that everyone is always looking for someone (and it also seems pathetic this day in age to constantly seek out that confirmation). Finding that someone is so difficult though, that I have to believe most people who marry in their twenties are settling. They must be. There’s no way (if I am to use my powers of logic and reason) that they’re all so madly in love. Its more about ticking biological clocks and simply being in a long-term relationship at a certain age and believing that one might as well take the next step. As long as the bride or groom isn’t completely without a personality, has a chunk of change saved up (this is a big one, as weddings aren’t cheap these days) and not totally unfortunate looking, it’s a match made in mediocrity heaven. So that begs the question, would a girl like me ever get married? And how can I without resorting to hypocrisy?

I once asked a friend of mine, of like mind, if she ever saw herself walking towards the alter in a puffy dress. She replied with the most magical image: if she and her partner were walking down the street, somewhere like Budapest or Copenhagen, past a church, her idea of perfection would be to simply walk in, no bravado, no frivolity, and marry. That is something I can understand. A marriage/wedding, only about the couple involved. No in-laws from hell trying to get their ideas in, no silly shot glass souveniers or seating arrangements. Pure Romance. And going back to the divorce rate, what’s to say this kind of thing has less of a chance? If nothing at all, at least it makes for a great story.

So there I am chain smoking wondering to myself what it’s all about, or really how I’m supposed get to the next phase of my life without feeling like, what my friends patronizingly refer to me as, “a free spirit” or “weirdo”. After all I’m not against marriage as the one and only way, or that weddings are a morbidly pedestrian event (but let’s be honest, next to the Miss Alabama Pageant, they kind of are) .…it’s just that I’d like to approach the next 50 years of a my life with a little more honest, and without having to be inendated with these societal standards of tradition, cakes, babies and condos.
After all I think it’s okay to stand for oneself, and for all those femmes who honestly do think it’s a load of rubbish. And we are snobs about, and we’re pretty pleased with ourselves.

So why waste youth on marriage and vynill siding when I can go for love and adventure instead?
And you can keep your white dress, you’ll probably need it at the funeral.



  1. I believe in love and celebrating love in whatever way people might choose! I think a lot of women that are in love and want to marry get thrown into that whole bridezilla genre you describe.

    Where are the crazy, independant, driven, artistic, one-of-a-kind women; whom also just happen to be with the love of their life/best friend. Why does my ‘wanting to jump in head over heels not caring’ doom me to be labeled ‘morbidly pedestrian’? Can’t I just be whimsically devoted?

    I am taking my stand as a woman who dreams of marrying my love- but will never be a vinyl siding girl. Hopefully all the free-spirits with a soul-mate will stand by me on this one…

    Those do exist right?

  2. Love this article, i’m 25, female and a photographer, one of the tasks i perform for money is shooting weddings…. 90% of the couples are my age or younger and i can’t imagine/comprehend doing that, let alone when i return to shoot that brides little sister’s wedding the following year, she already has 1 kid clinging to her while pregnant with another….

  3. Hey – your stats are not shitty enough. Yes, there is a 50 percent divorce rate [on the first marriage]. Second marriages are even worse, and chances of success decrease with each subsequent marriage. In addition, it seems that cheating spouses are pretty equal, but don’t seem to cheat together. So while 67% of men and women cheat on each other, these people are not necessarily married together, leaving a small percentage of people who don’t believe in dalliances who might actually be happily married to one another. How’s that for pathetic…Wait, that’s not enough, ’cause then they go to marriage counseling (as if it’s a romantic way of getting the sparks back into the relationship) and all the while everyone has distilled every quirk into checkboxes that are used in the divorce sheet. Don’t even get me started on children, which are so easily forgotten in this disposable culture we have here now in marriage….

  4. wow… quite the sad article.

    tripped on this and it seems that your life devoid of cliches is being lived by a walking cliche.

    Because you’re trying to be ‘off-kilter’ doesn’t making you any less cliche, you’re just another drone of a different culture. The attempt at being unique is in vain when one doesn’t know what to say other than “everybody around me is wrong”.


  5. Yes. Well done, indeed. I remember being in my early/mid teens and creating a list of goals that I wanted to achieve by the time I left high school. A lot of things on that list had to do with how other people, especially the opposite sex, perceived me.

    It was only when I went to college that I started to really engage in life outside of this romance-seeking, partner-needing obsession. Because I began thinking and speaking my own mind, men sort of drifted away (perhaps I did do some pushing).

    But then, when I had just barely begun to embrace and understand my freedom, I found myself in a relationship with a woman this time…

    Which just makes me wonder about human nature. What is it about companionship that sets our hearts and minds at ease? Makes us, or at least me, strive to be more creative and insightful?

    But perhaps that urge is something different from the weddings and marriages you speak of. Perhaps it is my similar desire to shoot for love and adventure.

    So, good luck to you, keep the faith and Aphrodite’s speed!

  6. Way to shatter everything! lol

    Seriously, very insightful and terrifyingly spot on. At 26 in my fourth or fifth (getting more and more depressing to keep track) long termer the clock ticks loudly and we walk to the rhythm that is so familiar now.. the all to familiar, “Why don’t you move in?” has come to pass and yet..

    After so many failed attempts, each one pushing the quest for that one true love further and further into doubt and trepidation, how do you tell if this time it really IS or if you’re just chasing the dress?

    Answer THAT one and I’ll really be impressed. 😉

    The ‘weird’ girls like you give the fairy tale chasers like myself hope that even if we’re wrong.. .. yet again.. that there’s strong women out there that don’t need the fairy tale.. What’s to say I can’t be one of them.

    Stay Fabulous Justyna!

    Reese 😉

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