Pete Doherty had a drug fueled secret affair with Amy Winehouse.

Amy Winehouse and Pete Doherty.

Amy Winehouse and Pete Doherty.

According to troubled rocker, Pete Doherty he still loves Amy Winehouse but in the end he realizes their secret love affair may have contributed to her eventual capitulation and death.

According to the UK’s dailymail, in an exclusive interview, Doherty also reckons that the collapse of their secret relationship also coincided with the deterioration of her health.

Said Doherty: “This is difficult for me to admit but, yes, it’s true. Amy and I were lovers.

“I loved her then and, well, I still do today.

“But towards the end, as only lovers can, she became quite mean and cruel to me.

“She didn’t suffer fools… and, believe me, she had a mean right hook.”

But Doherty does now admit there were clear signals things were gong awry in WInehouse’s life, never mine his own.

“She was physically small and increasingly frail and I never once saw her eat anything solid, just milkshakes.”

Since then Doherty reveals how he has gone on to dedicate a song to Winehouse:

“I’ve written a song about Amy for my new album, called Flags From The Old Regime.

“I’ve never done a song like it – it’s very slow and melodic. I’ve also got lots of lovely video footage of me and her just being together. But I haven’t been able to watch it yet.”

Of note is also the fact that Doherty goes on to reveal that he got a call out of the blue from former girlfriend Kate Moss (whom he dated from 2005-2007) who had called to check whether he had given up drugs yet.

Says Doherty: “I got a call from Kate a couple of weeks ago, which came as a surprise as we haven’t exchanged a word since it ended. And believe me, it ended nastily.”

In the interim Doherty now lives in Paris, in part to escape the constant paparazzi attention and the constant media questioning of his lifestyle and to pursue other artistic pursuits, including a starring role in a French art house film which also happen to star Lily Cole and Charlotte Gainsbourg.

Such are the conflicted lives of the uber talented and often uber self destructive, if only the two really went hand in hand or do they?

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