‘I am so ugly! My life is ruined! No one will ever love me!’
The above recriminations come courtesy of fashion blogger/model Lauren Scruggswhen the severity of her situation hit home with her after she unwittingly walked into an airplane propeller after alighting a plane last year.
At the time doctors marveled that Ms Scruggs even managed to survive such a horrific accident which left her critically injured with part of her scalp taken off, her left eye disgorged, her left arm clean cut off as well as some of her teeth cracked and her lip sagging.
As part of her efforts to come to terms with what happened to her and how she has begun the journey of learning to once again live a normal life Ms Scruggs has written a memoir which explores the incident and her raw feelings as she picks up the pieces.
In an exclusive courtesy of the UK’s dailymail, the book ‘Still Solo’ which is set to be published next week, the DM also reveal how the 24 year old has now found herself subjected to mood swings that she never had prior to the accident.
Earlier in January she had stood in front of a mirror naked for the first time since the accident, staring at her body for a full ten minutes.
She looks at everything including the eye which had to be removed and her missing left arm.
Lauren writes: ‘From deep within me a storm of mourning brewed and broke forth.
‘I climbed into the shower and the storm hit and the rain fell all around me.
‘Then I crumpled onto the floor of the shower and sobbed’.
Since her darkest hours, Ms Scruggs has been learning to deal with her new life and now regularly communicates between herself and her growing band of twitter followers, which stand at 12500.
In one such communique, the spritely 24 year old posted a photo on Instagram of her showing off her new prosthetic arm.
Despite all that she has been though, Lauren writes in the memoir that her trama has given her a ‘new perspective’ on the world.
She has taken a long look at her life and has realised ‘there was so much more to my life than being worried about how I looked’, she says.
Which might all be true but nevertheless Ms Scruggs will be forced to live amongst those who openly admit to upholding vacuous superficial values, something that she may or may not have once held but at least one thing is for sure, she is more likely now to come across legitimate people, entities and ideas that will help her maintain a calm head as she perseveres in her next chapter of life. Something that most personal traumas so often have the capacity to help us do….