Yocheved Gourarie Instagram suicide death. A Crown Heights, Brooklyn woman who jumped to her death from Hudson Yards vessel relays her struggles with anorexia, mental illness.
A 24-year-old Brooklyn Orthodox Jewish woman who jumped to her death from the Vessel in Hudson Yards had written a farewell on Instagram that she had intended to share following her suicide earlier this week.
‘I hope you can find some comfort in knowing I am no longer in pain.’
‘If you’re reading this, I’m gone’
EMS, responding to a 911 call, pronounced Gourarie dead at the scene.
She had scheduled her final Instagram message to post the next day.
‘Hey…. I guess if you don’t know by now you should probably sit down,’ Gourarie wrote.
‘If you’re reading this, I’m gone. Either that or somehow incapacitated in the hospital so I can’t delete this scheduled post. I really hope I’m not though.’
‘I don’t care to go into the reasons why I’m gone, but there are certainly more than thirteen. I scheduled a note to send to my parents posthumously….Even just publishing this may pain them.
‘I don’t want to do that, I just want to leave my last mark on this world.’
‘None of you could have done anything’
She concluded, ‘All of you have made my life so much more full, brighter, and happier than it would have been without you. Your support, your encouragement, your hugs, your invitations, your smiles, your texts, your tagging me in memes you think I’d find funny.’
‘None of you could have done anything – or done more – to prevent this from happening. You all did your absolute best and for that I am eternally grateful. I hope you can find some comfort in knowing I am no longer in pain.’
‘I love you.’
Family and friends gathered at Gourarie’s Crown Heights home on Saturday for an ongoing Shiva service.
According to her LinkedIn page, Gourarie earned a bachelor’s degree in psychology and neuroscience at CUNY’s Macaulay Honors College.
A week before her death, Gourarie posted a clip of herself singing ‘Moon River’ as her composer and musician father, Avremi, played an electric piano.
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Plagued by anorexia
Earlier Instagram posts reveal her sharing her struggle with mental illness, along with expressing gratitude for the support she’d received.
‘I spent years hiding my truth from the world, save for a select few family members and friends, and still more years in complete silence, certain that I was doomed to live out my days trapped in hell,’ she wrote in January.
‘Sharing my truth meant others could help carry it with me, so it was that much lighter,’ she posted at the time.
In August, 2019, she wrote on Instagram, ‘I often give off the impression that I am recovered and am offering advice from a place of complete healing.
‘I’m not. Anorexia continues to plague me, though its grip is far looser than it used to be and I have much more insight into my disordered thought patterns and actions.
‘I am also blessed with an incredible support system of friends and family, something that many others with eating disorders aren’t fortunate to have.
‘Since the age of 12, I have struggled with anorexia nervosa and have been fighting for recovery since committing to treatment at 17 – something I was only able to do because of all the love and support surrounding me.’
She praised the National Eating Disorders Association, urging people to contribute to the organization at nationaleatingdisorders.org.
Gourarie had spent two months at Center for Change, which her father described as ‘a wonderful residential facility in Utah for women struggling with ED,’ or eating disorders, according to Instagram on Friday.
‘In her short time there she made some good friends and connections,’ he wrote.
‘I am humbled by all the messages I’ve received from these special ladies, precious souls,’ he wrote.
‘We are only finding out now how she gave of herself to others and how many lives she touched. I guess I should feel blessed that we [were] given 24 short years to have and to hold her.
‘Life will never be the same,’ the father wrote.